Ten years ago today, I was living in Jersey City, just a short drive through the Holland Tunnel to the city, and I woke the same, as any other day. That day, everything changed.
I was getting my kids breakfast and tried to turn on PBS for them, but it wasn't working. I tried all the channels and only CBS 2 was on and it was a bit fuzzy. The news made my face drop. A plane had flown into one of the twin towers and it was chaos and unbelievable. Soon the other plane hit and I was in utter shock. I woke up my husband and like many other Americans I was glued to the tv and was calling people. And like many other Muslims, I was hoping it wasn't "Muslims". I put Muslims in quotes because a Muslim can't be a terrorist and still call themselves Muslims.
I feel that as a Muslim American, my life, and the lives of other Muslims living in the US, was affected more than most Americans off the street. I was horrified by the tragedies and on top of that the assholes who did this ruined things for Muslims in America, big time.
I was pregnant at the time and couldn't go out and didn't leave my apartment for 2 months. I had friends who had to go out for work and school and had horrible things happen to them. I cried and felt completely unwelcome in the only country I ever called home.
I don't have to tell you about all the hate crimes that happened in the weeks and months following 9/11. Not to mention all the innocent lives lost in Iraq and Afghanistan since.
The whole Quran burning fiasco, the problems with Park 51, SO many things have happened as a result of the events of 9/11 that have made it hard to be Muslim in America.
I'm not saying all this to discredit all the Americans affected by the tragedies but just to give a little insight into the American Muslim point of view. We're not the enemy. We were affected just as much, if not more. Of course, not including people who personally lost loved ones. I'm just saying, it sucks all the way around.
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