I hate this. Ever since Eid I haven't counted a point or watched what I eat nearly as well as I was. I was doing so good and I was so excited about it all and now I'm feeling so unmotivated. I don't like feeling this way or the fact that I feel this way.
I keep reading old posts trying to get that intangible something that I had. The thing that made me want to make healthy foods and keep track of my eating. I'm still walking in the mornings, I haven't put any weight back on but I'm at a stand still for the past couple of weeks.
I didn't want to post this to get a bunch of "You can do it" and "don't give up" comments because I know you guys support me, and I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. I just needed to get it out.
I think about the big picture and I think, my life is good alhamdulillah, and I'm happy and I'm lucky to have a great family and good friends, this is one thing that I really struggle with. I don't want to go backwards but I need to just jump into it and get back in the groove.
I know I have to do this. I just have to man up, or woman up, really. InshaAllah, maybe I don't have to keep blogging about it every week but I hope that I will want to. If I'm successful I'm sure I'll want to share.
I'm definitely not where I used to be though. I used to eat everything I wanted in any quantity I wanted at any time and didn't feel a tinge of guilt. These past couple of weeks I'm eating but not bingeing or anything. Just eating enough of whatever to satisfy my craving.
I have a huge craving for turkey and mashed potatoes this week, you can guess why and I'll probably make some soon. I made this yesterday and it was really good. Pasta salad with 'crab' and veggies. I did't use too much mayo. I tried the light kind and it was gross.
I just wanted to get that out and let you guys know where I'm at. I think after "confessing" I'll be more motivated to get back on track. Thanks for listening!